Depression is a very deep and dark hole. Sometimes you can see the light above you, but you can't seem to find the ladder or footholds to climb out. People can stand at the top and try to encourage you to find the way out, but unless they throw you a rope or a flashlight, you're stuck in the darkness.

With that said, I'm in a hole. I've had people at the top of the hole shouting encouragement, and a few have thrown me matches to try to see. However, those matches keep burning out before I can find the way out. So I sit in the darkness, feeling my way blindly, searching for that notch in the wall to climb out. I can't seem to find it.

Lately it feels like the situation is trying to block off that little bit of light at the opening. Either that or it is undermining the floor beneath me so that I fall deeper. I can't seem to get myself to a higher level.

And if I get to that higher level, will it matter?